I will get there

So I have my Senior Defense in two weeks, and I am nervous. Nervous that I am not prepared to present my campaign, partly because I know I didn't work as hard as I could have. The truth is, I am over it. School that is. I am not motivated. I am a person that needs a little healthy competition in my life to keep me going. Someone I can measure myself against. I just don't have it.

When I lived with Candace, my grades were great. I think it is because she motivated me to study and to get my crap done...but that was about four years ago. So you can tell what my grades are looking like now. I just wanna be done with it, thats all. But I am nervous about it. Ms. McGriff (yeah I know, it just sounds scary). She wants me to fail. She is looking for every reason to fail me. I can't let her win this battle. It is a struggle, but I am going to make it happen. I will get there.