I know what I am supposed to do

So...I have finally figured out what I want to do with my life. I know that once I reveal this astute revelation, all of me will be visible to the world, and I will no longer be mysterious. Okay, who am I kidding...I was never mysterious; but once I scream my life’s goal (only for right now that is) from the mountain tops (or just post it on my blog). You will probably look at me as a shallow person, but I will change your mind.

So what is this revelation?

You are reading the blog of the future Senior Vice President of Media and Artist Relations for Island Def Jam. Yes ladies and gentleman. That is what I plan on doing with my life. Don't get me wrong, I have other goals and aspirations, but as for my career goal, that is what I am going to do. There are no if and's or but's about it. So now that you know what my revelation is, let me explain how I came to this.

When I was 16 years old (senior in high school), I got into my friends car, she was giving me a ride home from school like she did everyday, she popped in a tape (yeah tape, that was before CD's) I heard "I'm feeling it, fill the glass to the top with Moet. I'm feeling it, feel the lex pushing up on the set, feel the high that cha get from the la, if you feel it raise your hands to the sky." And I said, "turn that sh*t off, what is that crap." She looked at me and said, "N*gga, that's Jay-Z, he is hot." I replied, "Yeah, whatever." And with the worst attitude ever stuck my lip out and silently protested the song the whole way home. From that day on we listened to that tape. Every morning I protested until I stopped being stubborn for a second and opened my ears, there was one line that I couldn't shake. It appears in the very song that I turned my nose up to, so profoundly I learned a lesson that would set the stage for a wonderful relationship.

The Man states, "If every nigga in your clique is rich your clique is rugged, Nobody will fall cause everyone would be each others crutches I hope you fools choose to listen I drop jewels..."

I looked at my girl, and said, "What did he just say?" she laughed and repeated it.

(She knew every word, like it was her religion or something)

"Do you know how profound that is?"

She looked at me a laughed, "You are so funny." She said, "Maybe if you take your nose out of the air for a second you'll learn something."

The next day (a Saturday) I went to Rasputin’s (a record store in the Bay) and bought Reasonable doubt. And listened to it over and over again. I became a Jay-Z lover, quick. As I listened to the music though, I became curious. If he has all of these things to say, and he just started (it was 1996) who paved the way for him?

Of course I knew of the obvious rap artists, 2pac, Biggie, L.L.Cool J, but who else? I started going through all of my sister’s old 45" record collection, and I found Run DMC, The Beastie Boys, Slick Rick and others. I began to listen, and what unfolded was my life. I was black, duh; anyone looking at me could see that. I was too busy being caught up in the grudge and alternative scene to see that. I learned that it was a good thing to be black, that we were creative, and determined. We were born and bread to be hustlers...it was in our blood, our ancestors had put it there.

I didn't grow up poor, or in a bad neighborhood, but I did grow up hungry, hungry for more than was given to me. Through hip hop music I learned how to turn this hunger into ambition, into dreams, into reality. That is why I will work for Island Def Jam one day. Because I love hip hop music.

I was born in 1979 the year that the first hip hop song hit the air-waves, I am a child of the generation, it only makes sense for me to work for the company that built it. I believe in hip hop music, that is why I should be the one to promote it. Help the artists old and new gain exposure in a media controlled world. We have been saturated with garbage; I want the job of bringing a consistent melody to the chaotic clutter that bombards or radios.

Yep, I will be the Senior Vice President of Media and Artist Relations at Island Def Jam Music Group, just you wait and see.